I don't want any pseudo-nationalistic person to tell me that I don't understand the value of Pakistan. I understand fully that this Pakistan is nothing without Islam. Without Islam, Pakistan has no basis.
Just when I thought that things couldn't get worse, "You mean they'll adjust the routine just because you need to say your prayers! Come on", my friend's pseudo-sarcastic and pseudo-serious comment. I was amazed to see the exams routine yesterday. There was no time for Asr Salah. The Exams would last for a week and the timing's such that the Asr time would start after the paper has commenced and when the paper would conclude we'll be into the maghrib time by then. Additionally, there was no time for Juma'ah Prayers as well.
"Sir! I had a little issue with the exam's timings", I was damn sure that they must have approved that routine by mistake not taking into account the Salah timings, for this very reason I wasn't that heated because to err is to human. "Yes?", he lifted his head towards me positioning his eye-glasses. "Sir! There's no time for Asr Salah in the exam routine", I though it would shock him that what a blunder they had made. To my amazement he smiled and said, "Lots of Salah have been performed by you already, and there's a lot of age to come". I said, "Death can also come in the days of exams", I can't give up my habit of saying meaningful, straight-forward statements. He replied, "Don't worry we'll get the sin for it, we're forcing you into". How blunt and how brave, people ask me how am I so daring that I speak so openly in front of people of authority. I think, I'm not brave, it's these people who are brave, who are ready to face Allah with all their sins. I stood there, "But Salah can't be left at any cost, you should adjust the routine accordingly". The only reply he had to my firm stance was "Talk to the Exam branch, they can handle it".
I rushed to the exam branch and announced my concern. 'That! That can not be changed', he made an ultimate remark. For a moment I was in doubt whether I'm living in a Muslim state or not. Aren't we supposed to share the same concerns? Don't we all realize the plain simple thing that there's no compromise on Salah. 'You are supposed to arrange the Exam routine according to the Salah timings, there's no real problem you just have to delay the exam half an hour and there would not be any problem', I presented a simple solution. In reply he started telling me how complex the procedure is, and how many things have to be taken into account while making the routine, and so it can't be changed. 'The most important thing is to keep the most important thing, the most important thing', he was taking into account so many things but he was forgetting the most important thing.
I came back and told this to my friends. Some of them laughed, some of them smiled, some of them made sarcastic comments and even the religious ones told me that 'this is not going to happen', you have to think another way. Even on this really simple matter I was unable to find anyone who'd go with me to the administration. At the end day, I feel my self totally broken. I remember the day when I was stopped from giving the 'Dars e Quran'. I remember the day when I was made to fill a 'personal data form' just because I've got a beard. I remember the day when my friend told me that you should stop leading the prayers because the administration has a special eye on me. I remember how much pain I had to go through to introduce a Salah break for Zuhr in the Classes routine. And I remember all the modern fancy stuff that they take so much of and ordeal to organize; the movie night, the concert, the tambola, the fun-fair, and they couldn't do simple paper-work to change the exam timings. Yes! It's all a matter of preferences; it didn't really matter to them.
Why should I be proud to be a Pakistani? Isn't the very state which sells 'religious' people to America? Isn't this the very state which bombarded its own Muslim neighbor? Isn't it the very state which doubts those who are sensitive about religious affairs? Isn't it the very state where so many 'religious' people are 'lost' since so many years, never to be seen again? No one knows what sin they committed.
I don't want any religiously excited person to tell me that I've shown hypocrisy by narrating my good-deeds. These are fairly simple acts. I'm not brave, but I know what's important and what's not. I don't understand these pseudo secular people. I wasn't asking for something special. How can one miss his most important duty? And I also don't want any pseudo secular person to tell me that I should 'relax'. This 24 hours 'sweet-temper' has been taught to us by the west. There are few things on which there is simply no compromise. Be soft on the people but hard on the rules. Also, I don't want any pseudo-nationalistic person to tell me that I don't understand the value of Pakistan. I understand fully that this Pakistan is nothing without Islam. Without Islam, Pakistan has no basis.
In the end I ask for duaas, I'm planning to meet the administration again tomorrow with full preparation. May Allah bless us with guided and directed passion.
Author : Mohammad Awais Tahir
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